Well this is pretty much how I feel. Honestly I dont know how many people sit and read my blogs, but its alright. I guess this is like a very public journal. Well as I have written before I have moved to a new place and where I dont know anyone but my family. One of the first things was that I was culture shocked when I saw the way people here dress. I guess that coming from LA and being surrounded by crazy, wild, open-minded people that dont give a fuck how they look and making statements by what they wear has a big part to do with this. I have been to Hollywood countless of times, so I have pretty much seen everything and anything wild. But out here all I see are vineyards and trees, which I dont mind at all but when I saw the people I was shocked… I know im not a big fashionista but I just wasnt used to the “simple life” of people here… But pretty much here where im at, im not myself. I try but I just cant. There are only certain people who know me well… One of those people is now in heaven, I miss him and love him everyday, today marks five months and to me its just another time that we go with out talking and im still waiting for his call. Thats why I didnt blog much in September, it was just a hard month. I miss my family and friends. I am literally a loner. But I know the sooner im done here the sooner I will go home to my family and friends. I will never change. But as long as im here I will act “normal” but trust me as soon as I go home I am back to my own self! I want December to come already so I can go home and be my loud self again! So right now I feel like Drake where I have my “mind in one place heart in another.” This is how things will be for a while.